Oozing 070820120129

its.lola.hunny
Jul 8, 2012
2 min read

When life is going so perfect it seems surreal.

When you live a life that I have lived waiting never seems to work. It never seems worth it but my god...

I've got it. I've just got to wait a little while. I've got you who seems so perfect with all your flaws and quirks.

You looked at me with those blue eyes. You stuck up for me. You were my closest friend when I had none and we barely ever talked but when we did, it was so easy and honest. I told you. I confided in you and you kept true to your word. True chivalry. Gosh, you make me laugh. I always come over maybe not daily but I check up on your family. Make sure they are okay. Always being on my mind asking how you are. I worry so much. I care way too damn much.

I want to be so girlie and say all these things but it's, not something I'm willing to screw up so soon. I'm so insanely impatient and you make me nervous.. more nervous than I've felt in a while... All butterflies and shit yet you live so freaking far away. I don't know how to do this. Date.. be silly. I want you to be my best friend in the whole wide world on a whole new level because I've held back and bitten my tongue.. rather you be happy than sad. It hurts me seeing you go through so much shit.

I've slept in your bed when you were away and felt more at home and safe than I had felt in a while. I've cried in your mother's arms and I usually hold that stuff back out of sheer fear of weaknesses being shown. Your family has done more for me than you will ever realize. I would do anything for them. Confessions of a broken steel oozing heart of love.