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Sometimes I wonder

If I’m just something convenient

If I’m something semi easy

Appearing to have my shit together

Or maybe it’s a little messy but

It’s more than what you have

And sometimes I wonder

If I’m ever going to be enough

And when this hamster wheel

Will stop spinning til tomorrows end

Sometimes it’s really just convenient

To sit in my silence til someone else

Will break

With a smile

Or a breath that

Takes me deep down under

My covers in my head

Lying awake in a bed

One side cold

One side dead

Cause love only exists

When peace is even read

But maybe the signs

Are

Inconvenient like I said